When I think of Leo, I see him with the style and demeanor of the great men who used to grace the silver screen, Marlon, Gable, or Dean. Making the girls swoon with one soulful glance their way. I picture him tatted up and smoking a cigarette, riding his custom 1945 Chevy pickup, aviator glasses over his hazel eyes, throwing back whisky from his flask and sharpening his knife, chasing the sun away while it sets. His soundtrack feels like the blues with the rusty throaty voices of the lead singers in The Gaslight Anthem and Social Distortion. I even named his favorite beach in my book after Brian Fallon. Check out one of my favorite songs Leo would definately rock in his truck on the link below.
Yeah, that’s my Leo baby. My Leo. He symbolizes the men who go in and out of woman’s lives and leave footprints and shattered hopes. The hollow men who refuse to feel their own heartbeat and decide instead to suffocate it with sin. Growing their skin into armor and walls. Taking everything for granted, cynical, a silent storm, a brooding stare. The Heart breaker, The Bad Boy.The Fighter, The Ghost. The man the majority of us women eventually have a dance with. The Peter Pan to our Wendy.
A man who once allows us in the quiet and close encasement of his arms, and makes most of us eager woman long to discover the pearl at the bottom of his shell. The treasure buried within.
I don’t want to say that he was created for only one person in my life. The more I delve into my story, the more I realize he isn’t just the face of a man who stole my heart, he is a reaccuring role, a repeated guest appearance to a version of a love or companionship that I always accepted. Only now, the beautiful part about my being the storyteller is I can write his tale any way I choose. I can make him fall for the mermaid or I can make him choose to kill. I still haven’t figured out how his story is going to end, but now that I have created his origin, I realize he isn’t only the man who has influenced me, he is a part of who I am as well.
We meet Leo in my book in the very beginning. The moment Sai gets a good look at his face she is entranced. His “wild one” stare out from under his eyelashes pulls her in. Once she sees all his brands and witnesses his cold behavior, it unfortunately only intrigues us more. Sai already has imagined being wrapped in his arms. Sai only makes Leo instantly want to run the moment he realizes she makes him weak. No one wants to open themselves up to love. C.S. Lewis says “to love at all is to be vulnerable”, and that doe eyed mermaid with her long black hair and lost lamb look shakes him up inside.
My Leo is a spirit hunter in Reven. Those in Reven who know of his ancestry call him a Rebel, a name that he has assumed was given to him for the curse he has chosen to take. A curse he permitted to be placed on him to no longer feel, to kill off any form of compassion or remorse inside, and help him forget what was done when he was a younger man. Gaio realizes when she found him, that fate wove her an incredible opportunity.
I will reveal in the other books of mine that Leo is actually from a long line of Knights. Knights who once fought with The Keepers( the mermaids) to protect Reven from the Avira’s (dark spirits) and the Consumed (the natives who have become possessed) that roam about like lions.
I always enjoy the story behind the story. I like to know why villains became evil or how the hero overcame his past. In a way, this whole series is my origins. The bigger story behind the story. The past that haunts Leo is beginning to resurface now that Sai has twirled her way into his soul. His role in the salvation of Reven was intertwined with hers long before they were born.
How many of us have tried to run from our past? How many of us have rejected any form or love or kindness because we have either felt unworthy or felt we had forgotten how to accept anything but pain? Built up our defenses and not allow anything or anyone in. That’s the part of Leo that is in me. That is a part of Leo that I can even sometimes continue to struggle with today.
I have always been fascinated with tattoos. The picture I had put up before inspired me not only for Sai but also for Leo. (When my book takes off I am going to be sure to constantly thank Angelique Houtkamp for her incredible artwork as often as I can.) I see all these gorgeous pieces of living art on people and imagine them coming to life and moving, much like the Illustrated man in Ray Bradbury’s novel Something Wicked this way Comes. When Leo’s curse starts to take over, his body rejects it, and uses it just like armor the Knights from his family used in battle. That’s how the brands are created. I tried to steer away from using terms like inked or tattoos, because that’s not what they are. I don’t want people to think that I was looking down at tattoos. I think they are incredible. I am still deciding what I want and where, but like Sai, I can’t make up my mind.
I hope that when people read about Leo they grow to love him and root for him to change. Relate to the hate they have for themselves, and in the end, like him, realize that all his lost battles helped prepare him for a bigger victory. Some of you might like him better as a whisky slinging killer, but I think he will always maintain his roughness around the edges…and still be gentle, at least to the woman he loves.
As always thank you for spending a little of your time reading my madness, and I hope one day very,very soon, my book will be out and about for people to enjoy. Until than Viya con Dios, and be happy always.